I’ll admit, it wasn’t easy going after you. All these years of courting, flirting and hangin’ out, all for you to just say no to me in the end. The moment I told you how I felt, I knew I didn’t have control anymore of what the outcome would be. What I had control of was when, where and how I was gonna express my feelings to you. But anything outside and beyond that, nasa sa’yo yung desisyon (the decision was yours). And you eventually chose to turn me down.

Thank you for the admiration and appreciation. Thank you also for your courage to admit this to me, I know it’s not an easy thing to do for anyone. But I’ll be honest with you, I don’t feel the same way about you. But I’m really thankful for the friend you’ve been to me. I hope you’ll meet someone that will reciprocate or even surpass those emotions. Wish you all the best in your future endeavors.

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In the moment, I was actually happy believe it or not. I was relieved that after being seenzoned for so long, I was granted with a reply that came straight from the heart. It was a growing up and self teaching moment for me. I know we never reached the deeper stages of love, but the mere fact I expressed my infatuation to someone is a huge stepping stone in “Adulting 101”. So to cut the long story short, I felt ecstatic that day.

However, as weeks and months passed, the “ghosting” from your ghost still haunts me. As time went by, that joy I got from doing something I’ve been longing to do for years has turned into sudden sadness and instant regret. I was starting to miss you again. As I see you thriving in your next journey, here I am, anxious about every move I’m about to make. Should I have really pulled the trigger? Was it wise for me to let you know I liked you after hiding it all these years? I know you could care less about how I feel, and I don’t blame you for it. You’re doing it what you’re supposed to. I’m getting there too, it’s just taking a little bit longer than it should.

With that, thank you for giving me the closure I never knew I needed. Not a lot of people get this blessing you know. I know it wasn’t easy for you as well to know how deep my feelings were for you, which makes me even more grateful for the way you handled this. You turned me down the nicest and gentlest way possible. You didn’t hurt me at all. Well, maybe you did, but as a responsible person and friend to you, imma feel better. As much as I’vs been thinking about it these past few weeks and months, I know for a fact that our lives are about to unfold. If anything, yours has already started. I also know that God’s got bigger and better plans for us, albeit in different places, scenarios and love stories. Indeed, we both grew up big time in this moment, and I’m excited for what He has in store for both you and me. Godbless always.

Yours Truly,

D.E.L. R.O.